He shared a song on facebook last night. This is a person who rarely posts anything other than a once yearly “thanks for the birthday wishes” post. And last night, he shared a song. And I listened to it. And I fell in love.
I know I’m reading way too much into everything, but I couldn’t help but be captured by the lyrics.
We try to reconnect but can’t find one another, I saw you looking at the high, crossed, starry lovers, When I’m gone, what will you become?
Will we ever find our Neverland? Drinking on a Monday, sleeping just to numb the pain. Will we ever be at peace again? Further is forever, restless til the day we die.
And so now I’ve listened to it an excessive number of times for it only being 9 am and I love it. Maybe some of us just don’t get to find our Neverland.
I remember one summer, we went camping with a group of friends, and things had just ended between us but we were trying to be normal around each other and he stole my ipod and put on the song “I Need You” by 3 Doors Down. And I have the same feeling now that I had that day. That maybe he really does feel the same way I do, but it’s just not meant to be, at least not right now. Maybe he’s finding this as hard as I am. Maybe I just need to believe that for now.
Maybe he’s my Neverland, and maybe we will never be.